Oct 1, 2010
"I'm not mad, I just lost my temper."
That's the quote Kiersten gave me today when I told her "no" to something. I can't even remember what she wanted, but that statement rocked me funny and hard at the same time. How often do I feel that way? How often do I justify my feelings because things don't go the way I want them to? It happened last night. Bogie promised me a family dinner night at a restaurant and I've been looking forward to it for a week. It didn't happen. I'm not going to go into details on why, but I was disappointed and it was all over my face and spirit. I didn't eat the chicken nugget dinner with them in my little rebellion and I made sure Bogie knew I was upset. Why? Because I'm selfish. Why can't I just look past this inconvience and live with it? Well, after doing my bible study and refocusing on what's important I apologized and explained why I was disappointed. I feel put on the wayside sometimes, and it makes me sad. Just refocusing and talking about my feelings helps way more than pouting in a corner and making every one else miserable. I'm sure I'll do it again, but at least for now, I've learned a little bit. Praise be.
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One thing I've had to learn in my new life (not married and working again and yada yada) is that we have to take time to make sure we come first sometimes. And I realize that was something I didn't always do when I was married (and also now dealing with my mom and kids) but to take the time and put myself first. I think it's perfectly fine that you felt disappointed and not selfish at all. I also think it's good that you explain why you feel the way you feel because that will help keep this sort of thing from happening in the future. It happens when we get our feelings hurt that we act hurt... the important part is that you did realize that... :)
ReplyDeleteI hope you are all doing well!
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