Sorry for the silence...

So sorry for the silence on here for the past week.  I've had things to say and updates on the kids, but I haven't made the time for them.  I've been filling my time up with being selfish.  Reading or playing solitaire on my iPod in the evenings (I've also been going to bed early, too... we get up so early now).   I've also been chatting with loved ones on FB, so that's not so selfish...  Forgive me and I'll try to start afresh.  :)

The boys are playing soccer here on base and loving it.  It was tough finding them shin guards (they can't play unless they have them and the local BX was out).  Luckily, we had some awesome people lend us a pair the day before the first game and that saved the day.  I'll post pics of the boys soon when I upload them from the camera.  Matthew has been scoring goals for the team and is playing well.  Ben is just happy to be running around and sometimes he is goalie.

I am also making a draft of the story behind how we got here.  It's in the making now, so keep an eye out for it to be published soon.

Today, I finally cried about the homesickness.  It felt good to cry, and I'm glad it finally arrived.  I've been waiting patiently for it.  :)  It's about darn time.

Today the loneliness hit me hard.  I feel lonely for numerous reasons, but one of the main things is that I have people in Chicago I know for certain love me.  I've already proved myself to them, and they know me and love me.   I have done the same for them.  I've known them for years and I respect them and want to know what happens in their lives.  I don't really have that here, yet.  It takes a long time for that to happen.  However, I do have one neighbor across the street who I know for certain will be one of my best friends.  You know how you just know it?  Something clicks just right, and the pieces fall into place with the personalities.  She is one of the sweetest and down to earth people I have ever met and I'm so happy to have a budding connection forming.  There is always hope when the world seems heavy with sadness.  Always hope.

One thing for certain is that I'm learning a lot of biblical knowledge and I'm praying a ton.  I've never been so wired spiritually before.  God wants me here.  He has prompted me to take Bible studies, to pray for people and to pray hard.  I'm seeing God everywhere I turn.  It's like I'm on radar.  He's showing me things in scripture like never before.  I can't get it fast enough.  I'm on fire, and I know it.  I can't stop talking about Him and all that He's teaching me.  It just spills out of my mouth.  I haven't done that since my kids were born.  It's like I was sleeping or something.  Well, it feels good to be awake now.  I have a lot to learn and I know He's preparing me for something big.  I feel it in my bones.  I'm excited to see the next chapter of my life, but I just have to wait and see.