My pride was causing me some trouble last week, but praise God it's better this week. I love getting clarity and direction when I seek what's right. However, when I'm in the thick of a difficult situation and my pride gets hurt, it is like a cloud and it covers over my heart and any wise/kind way of thinking is absent. All I want to do is shut myself down, hibernate and get/stay angry. I dislike myself like that and I struggle to seek His face and seek help from good friends who seek God. Praise God for good friends! I love you so. You know who you are and if you're reading this, thank you.
My awesome hubs is on that list, too.
My awesome hubs is on that list, too.
I love it when my heart is right. I feel so much better inside and it's like a fresh mountain spring running through my heart and my blood. Refreshing.
Just wondering... if you're reading this... do you struggle with this pride crud, too? I'm sure the answer is yes, but I seem to be dealing with an awful lot of it lately. What better way to get rid of it, than to extract it, right?
This makes me think of something I've been dealing with lately... sorry ahead of time because it's kind of gross, but it caused me think about sin in our lives. I have a planters wart (gross part) that I picked up here in Turkey. Never had one of these before and didn't know what it was until a friend told me. It started off a small annoyance and it's grown bigger over time. What a blessing right? Not. They hurt like heck and walking is difficult. I'm starting to take care of it now that it's diagnosed, but I think I let it go too far and it's not going away quickly. I may even have to see the doctor. Not my idea of fun. I heard how they get rid of them and it's not pleasant.
If left untreated, those warts plant themselves in very deep are very painful and get progressively worse over time.
While I was treating mine with the medicine a thought came over me about how these warts are very much like sin. If we don't deal with it right away, confess it and ask for help, it festers and gets worse to the point of having a professional take drastic/very painful action to remove it. I knew I had to confess my sin of pride and partiality and ask God for guidance and help. I did get help and I feel better now. Praise God. I want to be right with Him, not with the people who surround me here on this earth. Who cares if I'm not in the "cool crowd", I'm in the "in crowd" and that matters most to me, and I'm proud of that. That's the kind of pride I want. I want to boast in the Lord for He is good and has given me some guidance and healing. Praise be.
While I was treating mine with the medicine a thought came over me about how these warts are very much like sin. If we don't deal with it right away, confess it and ask for help, it festers and gets worse to the point of having a professional take drastic/very painful action to remove it. I knew I had to confess my sin of pride and partiality and ask God for guidance and help. I did get help and I feel better now. Praise God. I want to be right with Him, not with the people who surround me here on this earth. Who cares if I'm not in the "cool crowd", I'm in the "in crowd" and that matters most to me, and I'm proud of that. That's the kind of pride I want. I want to boast in the Lord for He is good and has given me some guidance and healing. Praise be.
Hi Beth, Just wanted to let you know I miss you! Also, I've been dealing with pride lately too. Not necessarily in regards to situations, but in my spiritual life-feeling too prideful to recognize and confess my sins. So, I'm working on that! Oh, and when I was younger I had warts on my feet. Absolutely not pleasant!
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