As Roxanne puts it, "I had a Craptastic day."

Thanks Roxanne for such an awesome word.  

Yes, craptastic.  

Craptastic, craptastic, craptastic.

It just feels good to say that word.  Especially with how beat up I feel today.  I am tired, I can't sleep, and I can't eat very well.  I'm at my last bit of patience, so saying that word is like letting out some steam that is slowly building inside.

I'm being raw right now and I lost my patience with my children before church tonight when they all had a meltdown about something different each was bothered about.  Of course, it was all right when we have to leave and we're running late.

Okay, so one good thing happened today.  You want to hear it?

My table is finished and two chairs are done.  The furniture maker had us look at them today to give the final go ahead so they can stain them.  It was such a relief to see after having to deal with so much craptastic stuff lately.

And to top it off, our furniture isn't all here still and we may never see it.  So after seeing the beautiful table made just for me, made me cry.  

Another good thing, is that I did go to church tonight even though I felt like I didn't want to.  I'm glad I did.  There were people there who helped me laugh again and see things in a different light.

I let the voices in my head twirl around and create havoc.  Why do I do that?  Why do I let that have power in my life?  That needs some prayer for sure, but I don't even know where to begin on that.  I've asked God to help me with it, but it just keeps happening.  I have to replace it with the truth!  I just now figured that out as I was writing this, so please don't think I'm crazy.  I figure things out as I process and talk it out.  Praise God for that.

Guess what...?

A friend just walked in with some cookies to cheer me up

and it made me think of this quote:

"Dear George, no man is a failure who has friends."
and I have friends.  Some very good friends I am blessed with.